No Sleep
Still not used yet, although I didn’t sleep at all last night. I downloaded some movies and watched them. I have done lots of things on the PC but nothing I can really show. I found some great little PHP scripts which I have put into memory and will buy then soon for my sites. I found it hard to concentrate today for two reasons first there’s the usual heroin withdrawal and secondly because I haven’t slept. I didn’t feel up to moving my ebook site but I will do it tomorrow. I will also wrap all the ebay parcels too.
I just won this water colour by Daria on ebay so I included it to cheer me up.
I was thinking about the two days after I came out of prison today. When you have been inside for a lengthy stay and not had any contact with anyone on the outside as I did the feeling you get when you come out is amazing. I remember when they let me out of the gate I walked away tentatively thinking that they were going to call me back because they had made a mistake. Then i caught a train and all the electronic things people had were weird because they had changed so much – I had never heard a polyphonic ring tome before! I spent three nights opening and shutting the bedroom door because I could! When I went out side i stared up at the sky it was very strange. Eventually you lose this fascination as it once again becomes the norm but it’s never forgotten.
My transvestite friend David has invited me to France for a three nights sometime between now and November. I could do with a break and David is the life of the party.
A prison poem that won the Koestler prize. This is a prison wide contest. It’s not an easy thing to do – win the Koestler because imagine there are lifers who spend all of that time studying and honing their skills. I like this one but a word of warning – if you aren’t an addict you wont understand most of the terminology.
